so happy to hear about your move. as i read through this thread, there was so much i wanted to comment on, to commend you on. you are doing so well, and have come so far.
I've found for myself, many of these emotions i've been dealing with: missing stbx, etc, have more to do with habits than actual emotions. i had created a habit of thinking of her and having a running mental conversation with her over what she's done to me, to our family, to our daughter. and that is now what i'm working on breaking.
to-do lists, goals: so important to me. funny thing is my father lived by his lists. if it wasnt on his list, it didnt matter, didnt exist even. and drove us nuts. he'd sit us down and tell us what our chores were each day by his list. and then come in and check them off as they got completed. our day wasnt done until his list was all checked off.
these days i'm doing the same for myself. i have a note book, i keep a running to-do list, and live by it - although much looser than him. i get some guidance by reading what needs to get done, i get motivation by looking at my list and i get some instant gratification to cross something off.
next i'll need to add more emotional items to accomplish, for now just tasks.
hope your move went well, take care of yourself.
"When I was a boy of fourteen, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be twenty-one, I was astonished at how much the old man had learned in seven years. " - Mark Twain
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
