It sucks. It's hard but I know I'm seeing a pay off here. Last Christmas my H was saying often and always in some way the marriage was over. Now he makes no mention of the D word and is even flirting with me. He is starting to kiss me goodbye too. Don't get me wrong, we had a set back today, but the set backs are getting smaller. I still have TONS of questions from the friends here who've been here longer than me but it just sucks and you keep moving forward. If you Get A Life, that is just all around beneficial for you no matter what happens and the GAL helps with the Acting As If. Oh, and I'm down to 105 pounds. When my H left, I was about 123. So this has taken a toll on me, but I'm eating again now, and I feel much better about me and my life and where this may go. But yes, the knots suck. Keep DBing your A$$ off. I'll help you and you can help me.
