A new phase..Future uncertain-imagine that!

[Vdad]

Vicky/Mel,

I am not in any hurry but she is now hell bent on this. Its funny that I have read so many other's situations that are exactly here where I am at and I didn't understand the feeling until now.

Before I was battling waywardness, trying to DB, and now the whole situation looks different through the prism of a impending D. She is just SO certain she can never come back into a R with me. Meanwhile she has REALLY started communicating, viewing other M, including the OM again. I actually feel like I am detaching for real this time. It just doesn't affect like it did before. I can see it happening but the anxiety is gone. MOre of a distant viewpoint on the whole thing now. Watching but not affected much. Is this how it goes?

It seems to come down to arriving at a place where you know there is nothing you can really do about it other than DB the best you can and watch to see what happens.

I told her I didn't want to stand in the way of her happiness, and probed her (as some sort of closure for myself) as to the viability of any reason for us to reconsider. Of course that was shot down so I said okay and turned to the reality of how to deal with finances and other coordinated things that two people splitting have to work through.

It ended friendly enough as I stopped all R talk. So weird to be at this place. Alternating between sadness and feeling of relief..

All strange...

V