If your WAS would agree...

[NNP1965]

You guys are right, I will continue to hang on until I get what I need and then do what I have to do.

I have come to the realization that I can not control anything but myself. Of course I knew this already, but I think it has finally really sunk in. There is no need for me to try and punish my H for his choices and that is what I think I have been wanting to do. It is what it is and I will not die from being left.

I had a dream last night where my youngest son told me "Mom you should not be sleeping with someone who does not love you". I know it was just a dream, but it sure rings true!