WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 4

[AnotherNightmare]

In the end it does not matter why you are angry at her. You are still blaming her for what is happening to you (and your family). Does it ultimately matter whose fault it is? Does it make you feel better when you blame her for it? Short-term maybe, because it protects you from the hurt you would feel otherwise, but long-term I would say it does not improve anything. As a matter of fact, it probably makes you feel worse.

Another thing based on what you wrote this morning. Her mood still seems to affect you a lot. Very often I read from you that she is in full blown WAW mode. Why do you care? You cannot control how she feels. You actually do not even know for sure.

I do not know if you can go out at night, but try to leave her alone. Go to a separate room and read a book or surf the internet. On the weekends, visit a friend or go hiking, skiing, whatever. Do that for a week or two. Leave her alone and give her space. Enjoy your own life and be happy. Start positive self-talk. See how that works.