Well, I did text him in the end just asking how he was. He sent a friendly one back.
I have been doing a lot of thinking (surprise, surprise!) and as I said to you Lisa when we last met, I have tried but I don't think I can be friends with him at the moment. It is too raw and painful and stops me letting go. That is not to say I won't be friend-ly but I need to let go and to do that I need to stop with the continual hope. I need to do this for me. I am ready to let go.
