I'm working on a fear of a backslide in h right now. Don't really believe it when we talk or are together, and he came out this weekend for a surprise, which was nice. Went to the beach and it was beautiful and warm and d11 rode the waves...
And he did a job search in front of me (Don't ask me why he didn't do it before..."mine is not to question why...") Though it has been wacky to have him gone so long (and dangerous b/c I feel distant as heck when he's gone almost like "out of sight, out of mind..." which cannot be good. For now, I'm just watching and wondering wth he's doing. And trying to keep an open mind & heart. I know, His mom is dying, his big gamble and crazy plan on living up in the tundra/wilds, flamed out big time...after years of fighting for it. But he denies being depressed into inaction, and talks of happy things and makes no mention of the deaths we've had in our family the past 14 months, and are facing his mom's soon...odd.
But just b/c he's not acting like me doesn't make him wrong. We're different. And that's okay...
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
