Well W was not good tonight. She was very distant, didn't really say anything to me. I went upstairs with D to lay with her in bed and we watched TV for about 15 minutes and talked about her day and weekend. Then tucked her in and said good night. She asked me to have W come up and give her hug. Went downstairs and of course bedroom door was closed. Knocked and went in and said D wanted her to give hug/kiss and she went up. Then got pissed that I was leaving. Said I needed to stay until D went to sleep (which is probably true) but I am mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted and have 20 minute drive to my home. Then I went back upstairs to do it and W got in the bed and said its ok sarcastically. I really don't know if I even want to try any more. She is so distant, not anything like the woman I have loved for so many years. She is different, changed and I know that I do not like the changes. I pray every morning and night that she will wake up out of this funk and be the woman I knew and loved, but I am starting to give up hope. Just a bad night I guess and I am so drained. Maybe tomorrow will be better in MC, but I kind of doubt it right now.
