Oops!!.......I think I've dropped the rope!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, my DB friends!

Sorry for the absence the past few days. Not much happening really to write about......I know that never stopped me before, but....

S17 is still making poor decisions. He is on "restriction" now, whereby he can not be in the apartment without me. That means he leaves when I leave at 5:30am, and can come back when I get home around 6pm. I hate so much that it's come to this, but I can't trust him to not have his "friends" in the place.

My step-brother wants S17 to come live with him for a year. He says that S is a mirror image of him at that age. Step-bro(SB) has been "training" S17 in martial arts whenever they get the chance and S17 really respects him, but S17 says he doesn't want to go live there (because he knows that he can't get away with anything with SB). But, I think S17 may respond better to SB than to going to "out patient group therapy" twice per week. Surprisingly, H even agrees and thinks S17 should think more seriously about taking SB up on his offer.

I found out today that I only get to maintain my military benefits (medical, commissary, etc...) for one year after divorce. This is not the way I understood it before. It's because only 18 years of our M was H on active duty. To maintain benefits it would have to be at leasts 20 years "active". Add to that the fact that in my state, they look back two years to determine "income", that means that the bonuses I received the past two years (which were substantial) will be counted in determining "earnings potential", even thought the market has now crashed and I will be unlikely to get any bonuses at all!! [It should be noted in the last couple years, that bonuses basically doubled my salary]. So, basically, if H files for D within the next two years, I'm pretty screwed. But, H says he's not looking to do that to me....(yea, that makes me feel so secure).

My old Jr High "flame" seems to have dropped off the face of the earth. We e-mailed back and forth for a couple days and he seems so excited that we would get the chance to meet up, and said he was going to call me last Tuesday night.....and then never called, or e-mailed, or anything. I called and left one message, and e-mailed him, but no reply.......strange....

Friday, I went out to dinner with one of my best friends and her H. Saturday, SB brought his daughter over and we did some shopping and then had dinner here at my place and watched a movie. Yesterday, I vegged all day.

I haven't been sleeping too good, but I have found that taking a Melatonin supplement helps a little with that.

H and S17 are supposed to have C tomorrow, but after S17's behavior today, I asked if perhaps it would be prudent for H and I to meet with C to discuss options......H hasn't returned that call. I have only called H to discuss S17, or finances, as requested, but as there is a lot going on with both those issues, it still seems like we talk a lot. He's cordial, but sometimes I feel like he gets frustrated and blames me for calls, but I really don't call unless I feel it's important.

Well, I have Deep Water Aerobics Tuesday and Thursdays. IC on Wednesdays. Have friends to do things with, so overall I guess I'm doing OK.