Hey Peace. Yeah that letting go is elusive. So hard to do. I think going dim is good, if it is for you, not h.
I think that may be the road to take in order to let go. Shame about him seeing the kids less. His choice though, wrong one, but his. He is losing all the way around. And it is so hard when it is your children being affected.
Keep the focus on you and your kids. Do you do anything for fun?Try to find something that brings you some happiness, my friend.