My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

It's my last night away. Back to reality tomorrow. I'm really excited about seeing Wee Man again though. I really have missed him. I've really missed my W too but I'll not be telling her that in a hurry.

I think I may be a bit better in my own mind regarding my M. It'll be a real test when I see her tomorrow though. I'm still really down every time I think too much about my sitch but I've been working on changing my train of thought when I start thinking negative thoughts. I'm getting better at it I think. There are plenty of happy things I can think about instead. It's something I'm really trying to practice. If I can master it, I'll be a much happier person.

I have spent so much money this weekend it's not even funny. It's all stuff I need to get my life with Wee Man back on track though. I do need to get in touch with a DB coach as you say PM. I need someone to speak to who can give me support and not just the negativity that I've been getting from my family. I've tried to explain to my sister what I'm trying to do and she may be coming around to respect my wishes. It's hard enough going through this without them all trying to put me off. It's made my trip away slightly harder. I've still had fun though and that's the main thing.

Kev