Just missing you guys a little!

[Amy M]

I didn't realize until I decided to post quickly on my thread that it was locked and my last post was from the 18th! Wow!!! I've come a long way from the days I was posting every 2 - 3 hours and checking my thread for replies even more often than that!!!

I've been keeping up here still...I've not done as well getting to know the new folks as I would have liked to have been able to do, but I think there will be a time for that a little later too. Right now, I'm working on me, and I'm not healed enough yet to deal with the raw pain of the beginning of someone else's sitch. I'll get there. I see so much value in this forum that I want to be able to help as much as possible in the future.

My life...wow! Things are going well. I'm busy all the time. I've finally started to get my work back on track. Lucky they love me, or I'd have been fired by now! I had a week-long trip to the Adirondacks for work for some training. It was cold, but getting away for that time was refreshing. The boys were with their dad, and he was Super Dad...got new shoes and haircuts and met with S7's teacher. I'm not complaining...I hope he does more of it.

As for H, well, nothing new. He did stop by on Thursday, and we did briefly discuss the draft settlement papers. He's gonna argue the taxes. I figured he would. It's not a big deal...and, to be honest, I'd have been disappointed in him if he'd let it go as the attorney wrote it! So, I'll have to pay taxes on at least some of the business payout. That's fair. He's supposed to get his markups to me this week so we can get them to the attorney. I don't think she's filed with the courts yet. But, I don't know!

He joked that he couldn't afford the D. So, I shrugged and said, "Well, you could come home." I guess I said it softly because he asked me to repeat it. I did. He just said, "Not an option." I said, "Okay. I just wanted you to know that it's an option for me." He said, "We are working this out." I smiled and said, "No. We aren't working this out. We are running from it." Then I shrugged and wished him a good day. That's the last conversation we've had. We don't even chat when he calls to talk to the boys. I just hand the phone over. I guess that's detachment???

I've been a little sad this past week. Not a lot sad...just a little. Sometimes I tear up for no reason at all. But, it doesn't last long. And, I guess it's all part of the process.

I'm staying really busy and having lots of fun. The boys and I hang out. We get together with friends. I get together with friends. I chat on the phone for hours. I've got some bold new friends (in fact, some of you know at least one of them) coming to visit this weekend. The weather should be really nice. They've not been here before, so I'm very excited about the visit. I get to show them the cool place I call home!

This morning I mentioned that I wouldn't be here most of Friday, and my dear friend at work said, "Why not?" I said, "Cause my friend is flying in on Friday morning." She said, "Oh, yeah. I can't keep up with you anymore. You are so busy, and you have so many new friends." I smiled at that! That's who I am...who I used to be...the me I lost in the marriage! I'd say that's SUCCESS!!!

I'm gonna keep being busy with fun stuff! I have a tentative trip planned for April, and another friend coming here in May. Summer's always busy here...my brother and SIL and their kids will come sometime this summer. I'm doing another 1/2 marathon in September. And, before you know it, the holidays will be here again! H agreed to give me Thanksgiving with the boys from now on (cause we always get together with my family then), and I'll have Christmas Eve with the boys at my house for 5 more years before I have to alternate. Not a bad deal for me!

And, since it's less than a year away now, everyone go ahead and mark your calendars now for my b'day party on the beach next year...we'll celebrate a day early on February 13th...so I'm not too old to participate! Cause by the 14th, I'll be 40!!! There will be lots of ice cream and good music and margaritas and good folks!!! Come join us if you can!!!

((((((Sandi)))))) I especially wanted to post for you...so you'd know I'm doing well. I'm still struggling with letting God completely take care of things in my life, but I'm getting better at it. I'm reading The Shack. It's excellent if you haven't read it, and some of the ideas in there have been good for me to contemplate. My Bible study this session is on I and II Corinthians and is about Relationships and Passions. It's my first Kay Arthur study, and I'm learning a lot. So, keep praying for me, but don't worry about me!!!! I'm in good hands!!!

And, I did get to see the friend who lost his fiance in the plane crash in Buffalo. He looked better than I imagined he would. The next few weeks will be difficult for him, but he's back at work. That should help him. Thanks for the prayers on his behalf.

I love you all!!!!

Amy