Well, here I am on my newest thread and I've come to some very clear conclusions about me. Since my snowboarding accident exactly 6 years ago, it has been brought to my attention that my memory and my brain don't operate quite like they did before. Part of the change in me is that I allow so much negativity to loop between my ears and I've beaten myself down emotionally incessantly since my accident, making my life much more challenging. All of this was quite something to have brought to my attention, as it flew in direct opposition to what I believed was true about my brain functioning and healing.
My initial impulse was to be defensive and defiant, but that quickly died down because I thought, what if it's true? I certainly do want to know about my brain function/emotional shortcomings after my accident, particularly if I'm not aware of them, because that at least gives me a fighting chance of developing new, alternative neural pathways in my brain to compensate for the physical damage my accident caused. The brain is a wonderful thing. It's up to me to control it's functioning with my mind.
I'd be lying if I didn't own up to the fact that what I've been told is disappointing and scary. I it. I also know that I am determined to make the necessary compensatory changes to make my life and myself all that it and I can be. I am sad that others who are close to me have held out from telling me about the changes in my brain workings for so long, but at least now I know what I'm dealing with and can work on making conscious changes in my life/behavior/perceptions. I know where I am and I know where I want and intend to be. I'll get there. I am an extremely determined.
About my DBing. I'm in a holding pattern and doing the best that I can to hold it all together to push myself through my every day challenges. Again, staying focused and determined will assist me in reaching my goals and achieving my dreams...ALL of them.
