Temptation brings us down the wrong roads when we give into them. What I often find is more upset and more disappointment, especially with myself. So, what do I do? I give in some more. It is a place that God doesn't want us to go to in the first place. I ask God to forgive me for not trusting him. Trusting him and allowing myself to have total faith in him is 'oh so' difficult sometimes. I believe very strongly that he is asking me to trust him, believe in him. But sometimes, I doubt and the feeling sorry for myself 'snowball effect' begins. I just talk myself right over toward temptation. What happens? One bad choice after another happens. I hardly even struggle with it. I just jump because I think I'll feel better. I don't feel better. My hope just diminishes. So, I won't let it happen some more. I'm nipping it in the bud and fighting back. I won't let myself get off of my positive track toward my positive goal. I can do this! Stresses will be resolved...sooner or later (hopefully sooner)...financial issues, going off my diet because of it, crying because I don't want my parents to worry, feeling lonely because 'A' is having a life that he chose not to have with me. It's a spiral heading downward. I will choose HOPE. It's a struggle, but I am holding on. Nights are tough.
I am reading 'I do, again'. The tears rolled down my face, but it has encouraged me. I did not have an affair, but it gives me hope for many reasons. I recommend the book.
