OK Mike, Get this, I go to the bathroom right after I post the last message. She comes down, I thought for sure she would sleep in, and when I come out she is reading what I had written, I run over and say hey that is private and click it off.
She says who are you writing to, I said I have kind of a support group and I dont have a counselor (like she does). I go up stairs and she is upstairs soon after. She shuts the door and gets on the bed, she then begins to tell me she wanted to ml last night but knew our oldest son was awake and did not want it to get serious until she knew he was asleep, she then said that she could not keep awake. But she was thrilled where we are now, and how we can discuss things without it getting into a fight.
Anyway it was kind of a breakthrough for us, as I know now she is interested again, and that she is happy with how we've been gettting through everything. I told her that I was thanking a guy on this site that was telling me to be a man and not a little baby because no one wants to ml to a whinny little baby. She said it is a cyclical thing to her, as she would feel pressure from me to ml, then feel guilty about not doint it, then really not want to do it, and so on and so on. ANyway I am busting about our conversation about the R and feel a whole lot better about everything!
Now she has a damn migrain so it might not be tonight, but that is OK with me, I know that I can wait until she feels good about it, whether that is tonight, tomorrow, next week, but this morning was great!
