I think your right Tawnya. I'm almost wondering the same thing. At the same time, H has never really been very careful with his accounts.
well life at home is coming along. The new decorations are almost done, and I love it. The kids have their playroom downstairs, and the parents have a great theater upstairs. My garage is so full of crap that we have been accumulating for years that we now need to get rid of.
Ironically, OW texted H yesterday to say that she may be getting back together with her H. H showed me the TM. How crazy is that. Makes me wonder how long things were really going on between them, but I don't really want to know the answer.
I find myself working daily to let go of the past. Both the thoughts of the A and the things that I have done to contribute to the downfall of our M. I know I have forgiven H, I just need to forgive myself. Isn't that weird. It's easier for me for forgive H, but so hard to let go of my part. Why is that? The guilt is overwhelming sometimes.
For now, I am taking everything one day at a time. I'm enjoying the time that I have with my family and MY h. I am working everyday to be stronger, happier, and closer with God.
