24now-Extremely well said about the trust issue. I guess we must all hold some hope or we would be idiots to waste all this time. You say you have a date in mind. What do you expect him to do by this date? I don't have a date set because I know this is going to take time. As long as I see us moving in a positive direction I'll be in it for the long haul. At least that's how I feel now. Who knows about next week? I've got to get a grip and stop all the stuff in my head. It serves no purpose other than to drive me to distraction. To beleive or not to believe. I guess I'm not believing, but acting like I do. Hoping-I have heard so many different scenarios that I don't think any one of them holds true. I've heard of people that do get divorced and then still work it out. I've heard time is on our side, but I've never understood what it meant. I guess you could say my H still has reason to lie.(If he is) He still wants me, although not enough to come home, and I know he does not want our kids to think bad of him. Um hello? The A pretty much blew their trust although they still love him. He's a wonderful Father and WAS a wonderful husband until he wacked out on me. He was good alot longer than he's been bad, and that's what keeps me going right now. My S. says he'll leave if his Dad comes home because he does not want to go through it all again. Can't blame him there. He thinks I'm nuts for having anything to do with him and develops a real attitude when his Dad comes over or he knows I've been out with him. I'm hoping time will help him. You can't exlpain midlife crisis to a teenager. They only believe what they see-not the gray areas. If my H does this again to us I will simpy have to come to the conclusion he's gone completely crazy. Rachael
