I did try to call my H and there was no answer. The only phone he has is his cell, and he ALWAYS has that with him. It's been 2 1/2 hrs and still no response. He doesn't have voice mail, but he can see who has called. This does not look good. He does these disappearing acts where he doesn't answer his phone and it always seems to be on the weekend. He comes up with stories that he's at some guys house that he knows and is helping build a room, and I couldn't prove him wrong because I don't exactly where he lives. know where he lives. I wonder what he'll come up with this time.
Surprise. He just called and guess where he told me he was? Same place as usual. He was nice as could be. Said he left his phone in his truck and went to the lumberyard with this guy and came back and starting working and just went to his truck to check his phone and saw that I had called. He wanted to know what I was doing, and what I was going to do. I have so must mistrust! He sounds so convincing, and I find myself wondering if I'm crazy. I just don't understand these times that I try to call him and can't get ahold of him for hrs. I just know he almost alwasys keeps his phone on him. I said"Let's get together for dinner later." He agreed and said he'd call me when he got home-They were going to finish all they could today. Is my gut telling me something, or am I just being paranoid?? I mean, how could he be with her and call me and set plans for later today? He had to hear it in my voice that I didn't exactly trust what he was telling me. He was good at convincing me he was where he said he was. Is that him just trying to reassure me, or is he doing what he did in the past which is lie? I only wish I knew for sure that she is out of the picture. It would make a huge difference. I couldn't take another deception like before. I have not worried about this until we started seeing each other alot, and now I am unsure of his honesty. I never bring her up, but I need to know if he is being honest. It just feels wrong, and I can't explain why. Maybe I'm just not over the lies and deciebt from before. I'm not sure how to handle this. If he's lying it would do no good to ask him about her. He'd just lie more. Do you ever trust once it has been so badly broken?? Rachael
