Well, saw h yesterday for a few minutes to get money (c/s). We brought him a silly little gift (some girl scout cookies he loves). He was appreciative and he kissed me when we left. As I said before, I am not very affectionate, so I did kiss him back. Anyway, the roller coaster continues. I think maybe he wants to give it another try, but still has the wall up since I am the one who pushed for the separation. I would love for things to work out, and I have been trying to improve myself and improve the interactions I have with him.
I am sad about our family and dreams of the future possibly dying. I would give it another try if he asked. However, I don't really see that he has tried to make any changes. I have and will continue to try to improve myself. I dunno... Still confused like my name says.. LOL
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher
