Hi Sun,

I'm not sure what 180s would work, but I have a few plans for myself that I intend to initiate beginning Monday.
Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) they will take even more time away from H and I to be 'together.'

1- I'm going back to the gym
2- I'm starting (please don't laugh) a weight gain program
to try to put on 5 -10 lbs that I've lost this past year.
I've gotten much to thin.
3- I'm going to spend more time on my house/and school work
when I'm not at my real job, instead of sitting around
being bored or so blah that I can hardly stand the
thought of running a dust cloth.
4- I'm going to try to identify some things I'd like to do
and do them. I'm no kid, and there are a gazillion things
I've never experienced and should, before I'm too damn
old to try them.

I have become to focused on HIM and this M again...and it hasn't served me well emotionally to do so. I need to get a life as they say and that's exactly what I intend to do. I think my H is running out of time with me, I'm losing interest in trying to put this Humpty Dumpty back on the wall.
T2