Sun, between his alternate weekend stays we do talk daily on the phone and see each other at least for a few hours one or two nights a week BUT as you said, at least on MY part the on again off again physical separation just brings me down.
I guess I have gotten to the point that I feel he and I are comfortable enough and safe enough with each other that there's really NO valid excuse for him to continue to have his own place except that he WANTS to retain (even if only unconciously) some CONTROL over all this by coming and going as he pleases.
Right now, he's out in the river room reading the newspaper, it's the same old ritual from years and years. Last night we slept like an old married couple. He has a terrible cold and he was curled up on his side of the bed as if there was a fence between us in there. I write that off to his really not feeling well but it irks me just the same.
The weather is rainy/drizzly here today so our ability to do much is dampened and I get squirrelly when I'm trapped in the house with him like this...I hate when we are doing nothing and acting like the boring old days of our M. I know it has to stink for him too.
He's probably resenting my being in here on this puter (he hates this thing) but I'm to blah to care.
I guess MY expectations are to high. I want him knocking himself out showering ME with attention and affection....I'm beginning to think that if I ever want those things in my life again....I'll have to find them elsewhere.
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