i think i have just come to a revelation of where my negativity has come from over the last two weeks. i am feeling very FOOLISH right now, hurting to think about all the times i knew something was not right about my h relationship with the ow and they would BOTH just tell me i was thinking too much - i have been having dreams about them being together and laughing cause they "got away with it" one more time. oh, she doesn't suspect a thing, we are ok for a few more weeks and then do whatever people having affairs do.
i am really hurting right now, all over again. to think what a fool i was, and what a fool i believe i am now.
