So far today has been mostly event free. She was out for breakfast with friends so I was home and had breakfast with our son. I made sure I showered early and got dressed and didnt stay in my pajamas. When she got back, she said 'hey, why are you all dressed up?' And I just replied 'I am?' And she said usually I'm just in pajamas and unshowered on Sat mornings. And I just jokingly replied 'Hey..I'm not allowed to shower and be dressed? And we kinda just left it at that. I'm guessing and hoping that whole thing was a good thing for me.
And something else I noticed which I don't know if it means anything. But back on Valentine's day, I did get a big thing of roses for her. I said it was from me and my son, but of course she knows it was from me. But I know she did like the whole bouquet. But the flowers finally all dried up and died, and she got rid of the flowers, but took the ribbon and heart decoration from it and saved them and added them to this display she has with decorations on it. I don't know really what to make of it cause she could be just saving it cause she thought it looked nice. But of course my mind is hoping that they were saved cause they have some sentimental value. And I'm pretty sure she saved any of the letters that I wrote over the past couple months when I didnt' know about not pursuing. Not sure really what that means either, or if it means anything.
But she left around 3pm again to meet up with other friends for a dinner B-day party. All I did was just tell her to have fun and wish her friend happy bday. I'm trying to play it cool, but inside my heart and my head I was totally thinking that she is just going out with friends cause she is getting ready to move on and have a life without me.
