Rob, I know exactly what you mean about finding oneself overwhelmed - I've felt that way for the last few months - and am now looking forward to moving and getting it behind (today) so that I can at least start to focus more of my attention on other matters in my life.
I've been up since about 3:30 AM trying to get some work done - but also because I just could not sleep. I'm picking up the truck at 7 this morning, and then my friends should be here around 9ish to start helping me load it up. I've got a mountain of boxes all sitting there ready to go in the living room - and I don't think it will take us too long to get everything moved out.
I keep wondering what kinds of emotions will go through me today - though the one that keeps bubbling up the most is this sense of relief. I think getting out of this house, getting away from the many memories and hopes that I carried when we first moved into this place (just a year ago) will free me in so many ways. That's what I want back, I suppose - I want my sense of freedom and an openness to the real possibilities that life has to offer - I don't mean in a new partner - I mean on a purely personal level - in terms of my work, my time with my children, my time alone, and my time with friends.
I'm still surprised at just how much my mother and I were able to pack up in just a few short days. It was mostly books that had to be boxed (which I took care of) but she helped me pack up the entire kitchen, the baby's room, and much of my S11's room. There are still some things lingering about the house, here and there, but they're just the stuff that has to be there, until they leave with us.
I'm not sure I'll be able to post again for a few days - as it appears it will take a few days for someone to turn on a switch and give me phone/Internet access in the new place - but I'll check in again once I'm able. For now, I just hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.
And, Rob, make the most of your workout this weekend and have fun getting back into that powerful mindset you had back in January.
