I know what to do. Just need the support.

[noedphi]

I am not doing good right this second. Its almost 2 in the morning. She has not called text or nothing. This will be the first time she has not let me know she was staying out late. I thought I could handle it. But here I am venting. She has been drinking on the weekends more that she ever has in the whole R. Last time she was this late she was waiting for the alcohol to ware off. I handled it better last time. But I am not doing good right this second. My heart is beating through my chest just thinking about it. If she does not come home tonight I pray to the lord he does not let me do anything. This is hard. I dont know what to do. Right now. I am sure in the morning I will be fine. Its just getting through the next few hours. I thought I was doing better. I really did. Whats going through my mind right now is not good, not good at all. I am not sure my next statement to her is going to be anything less than something that will end all chances for any kind of anything. not good