Being content for now.

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Kalni....I am upset. Stuggling some tonight though. Im doing ok, but I have done this many times and I am becoming numb to it. I hate it, but I know I did all I could do.

Stillloveshim....yes I have been doing this for a long time. Seems like it has flown by really. I know and so do my children that I did what I could do to try to keep my marriage together. What I hate is that it still hurts. No, not as bad, but the heartache is still there. Honestly, deep down, I knew this was coming again. I should have known better really. I do now.

Thanks Cinders, I am stronger, and I do feel it. I think that now, my H will see those changes.

He texted me a handful of times today. I answered politely, but to the point. I haven heard from him since about 4pm. Its friday night and Im sure he already had a woman feeling sorry for him and he is out with her. It hurts, but what can I do. Nothing really, but I am trying to keep my mind occupied. I wanted to go out tonight, but couldnt find a sitter.

I will be ok. Just wish this part of my life was over. Ready to fast forward some.

Thank you to all of you. I do appreciate your thoughts and support. I really need it now more than ever. I dont want to fall back into a depression of any kind. I want to live my life!!