"I've actually had a full battery of hormone testing, thyroid levels, etc., but nothing comes up out of range. "
Mishka - FYI - the "normal" range on thyroid tests keep being revised. Most labs, for instance, have been reporting TSH as normal between 0.5 and 5.5. (TSH goes up as thyroid goes down). However, recent studies show that if you test a large population, and throw out everyone who has thyroid disease, thyroid antibodies, or a first-degree relative with thyroid disease, (so that the remaining people are presumably free of thyroid disease) then 90% of people have a TSH less than 3.
So - take another look at your test results. If your TSH is over 3.0, you may need treatment. Take your basal body temp in the mornings; if low, you may be hypothyroid (or anemic or iron deficient). Check out Mary Shomon's website on about.com.
Also - Cushing's syndrome (high cortisol, usually from a benign growth) causes weight gain and hypothyroid-like symptoms because high cortisol interferes with thyroid hormone. This diagnosis can be missed sometimes if the right tests aren't done.
Thirdly, high insulin levels and insulin resistance is a major factor in weight problems. Have you ever gone on a low-carb Atkins-type diet?
Kissak, I think you are amazing. If your registration date is anything to go by and it probably is, you've been DBing for a long time. One of the deals for me is to be able to say in the end, no matter what that may be I can tell my S, Mommy did everything she could to fight for our family. And not that I plan to put things on Daddy, but it's important my son know that. Obviously you feel the same way.
I've been looking for you on the alt. Are your RL initials CS?
Yes, thats me!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Kalni....I am upset. Stuggling some tonight though. Im doing ok, but I have done this many times and I am becoming numb to it. I hate it, but I know I did all I could do.
Stillloveshim....yes I have been doing this for a long time. Seems like it has flown by really. I know and so do my children that I did what I could do to try to keep my marriage together. What I hate is that it still hurts. No, not as bad, but the heartache is still there. Honestly, deep down, I knew this was coming again. I should have known better really. I do now.
Thanks Cinders, I am stronger, and I do feel it. I think that now, my H will see those changes.
He texted me a handful of times today. I answered politely, but to the point. I haven heard from him since about 4pm. Its friday night and Im sure he already had a woman feeling sorry for him and he is out with her. It hurts, but what can I do. Nothing really, but I am trying to keep my mind occupied. I wanted to go out tonight, but couldnt find a sitter.
I will be ok. Just wish this part of my life was over. Ready to fast forward some.
Thank you to all of you. I do appreciate your thoughts and support. I really need it now more than ever. I dont want to fall back into a depression of any kind. I want to live my life!!
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Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Ahhhhh...Kissak it breaks my heart to see your H is repeating the cycle even after therapy. He warms up to you when he has some one else in his life, that sux and I can see your disappointment and heart ache. it may be time for you to realize this may never change.
Me 53 H 51 OW 25 Bomb may 06 left june 8/ 06 ILYBNILWY (twice!) 7/6/07 H wants to come home 7/21/07 H comes home 7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW now piecing in earnest
Thanks A new 2moro....I had to sit next to him for quite a while at tkd today. My son had his testing today.
It was odd. First off, my H texted me today at 12:15pm to say Good Morning, which really irritated me. All I said was "afternoon". He came back with "oh, sorry thats right, afternoon". Which means, he had just gotten up. Whatever.
Then he wanted to know if I was on my way to tkd, well I didnt answer his call or text because I have my phone on vibe, because I dont care if I get his calls or not. I get there and he asks "what? no hug?" I looked at him and said "nope". Walked in and sat down. Well, he makes a few comments to me such as "you have somthing on your face and your hair is blowing across your nose,"....then I had my phone and I turned it down, well, then he wants to know if Im expecting a call or something, I just said nothing. Well a few times I had looked at my phone simply because I didnt want to talk to him and he started asking why I was so interested in my phone and who was I expecting a phone call from....he was smiling the whole time. Then my phone rings and i walk outside to answer it and HE FOLLOWS ME smiling! Wanting to know who it is! I told him that it was none of his business!! It really ticked me off cuz I dont ask him who is calling him!! Well the whole time if I even look at my phone he would snicker!
I dont really understand the point of that whole thing. Can anyone else??
He wanted to act as if nothing was wrong. He even tried flirting a little. He even made a sexual comment to me.
Ugh. He cant seem to just sit there and behave without acting stupid.
Then he left after the test and texted me a "buzz" and to "drive safe".
Seems like the same crap all over again.
Im proud, I said hardly two words to him and only answered him if he asked a question.
I havent heard from him since then and probably wont because he has a new girlfriend already taking care of him again.
A new 2moro, I do realize that he will never change. I do get what his therapist says...that he can handle black and white, but not the gray areas....He likes being with me and all, but if its in the marrige context, he is in the gray. Now i guess he is back in the black/white and he is happy for awhile....till he thinks I may be moving on and dating someone else.
Will this ever end???
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Will it ever end? Maybe. You could end it forever. Or he could grow up and realize how great you are and want to work it out. I hope he grows up. It sounds like he definitely still has it for you. Otherwise, who cares who is calling you? Honestly, what do you want to do? Let's pretend you have the keyboard that controls the world right in front of you.....what do you type for you life?
