Wednesday's Journal (cause I'm late postin as usual!)
I was off from work today but had classes tonight so I didn't get to see H although we talked on the phone a few times. Nothing earth shattering, just chit chat.
I had a slight bout of the momentary blues today that lasted for a few minutes, but I shewed them away by reminding myself that I haven't SEEN or HEARD a negative in days. Oh sure, I've tried to invent a few, I've looked for them, I've 'imagined' them...but I haven't really had one that I could grab on to so I guess all in all, my PMA is still in pretty good shape.
I'm off again tomorrow and my 'more of the same' pattern would be to conjure up some sort of resentment/jealousy over my Hs not taking a few hours from work to spend with me (he sets his own hours for the most part) so MY EXPECTATION is always that he should drop everything (important or otherwise) and come 'hang out with me.'
The good news is, KNOWING that I set myself up for the above disappointment when he doesn't arrange his work day around me, tomorrow, I will EXPECT that he will NOT break from his 'norm' and I will have to 'settle' for seeing him tomorrow night for a while, if he asks to come by.
Okie dokie, that's it for today...I warned you it was gonna be boring! T2
