I've had a wonderful visit over on Sage's thread where I "listened to her" speak for me in several of her posts. It is truly amazing how so many of us think and feel exactly the same way through this process. It's very comforting to know that someone does TRULY understand what we're saying.
I didn't see my H today, but I spoke to him on the phone a few times and I even sent him an e-mail thanking him for the books and thanking him for the way he's been treating me lately, making a tremendous effort to make me feel special to him once again. It's been really good for my heart and mind these 'simple' things he's done and I wanted to be sure he knew that I was grateful for his efforts.
I've had such a good and confident day, I haven't had one like this in a very very long time. Tonight he worked late, and I hadn't heard from him since mid afternoon. NORMALLY I would have high tailed it into the UGH OH mood, but I didn't.
I actually found myself saying, gee, he must be busy at work to not have called me yet. NOT one old "fear" got a chance to creep into my PMA because instead of festering in destructive 'old thoughts'... I picked up the phone and called him at work. He was happy I'd called and said he'd been so busy he'd let the time get away from him. He said our son came by to visit him at work around 6pm and that they'd had a nice visit. He told me about all the stuff he'd taken care of at work today and that he'd be finishing up soon and heading out to grab a quick bite to eat before heading to his place for the night. He thanked me for the e-mail I'd sent, saying it was really nice and should he have sent a written response or was it okay just to thank me for it. How nice that he cared how to respond in a way that I would feel good about it.
Knowing he'd put in a long day, I told him I'd let him go so he could finish up and get his dinner and he said, "Thanks, I love you and I'll call you as soon as I get to my place."
Thanks to my friends on this board, I'm working very hard at SEEING all the little and the big positives and celebrating them INSTEAD of bitching that there aren't more, or different ones or whatever.
Thanks gang FOR REMINDING ME TO LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE and TO BE GRATEFUL FOR IT T2
