Joyful, Nik, Deb, JP and Sun Thank you all for stopping in to remind me that I'm missing seeing the forest for all the trees. You all helped my PMA tremendously today.
I guess I fail to have gratitude for what I do have now, as compared to what I had even one month ago.
When I am forced, by wonderful people like all of you, to stop feeling so damn sorry for myself and LOOK at where I am as opposed to where we were, I am grateful.
My fear is my greatest enemy at this point. Not all the painful past, not the As, not the hurtful words and misdeeds but my holding on to that pain and my fear of letting it go. It's crazy that we become "comfortable" with all that heartache and when it's not there, we miss IT.
ALL OF YOU have helped me tremendously tonight. Thank you for pulling me up short because I have been headed down a dangerous path with my failure to "count the positives" these past few days and there have been more of them, then there were negatives.
