Kissak, I think you are amazing. If your registration date is anything to go by and it probably is, you've been DBing for a long time. One of the deals for me is to be able to say in the end, no matter what that may be I can tell my S, Mommy did everything she could to fight for our family. And not that I plan to put things on Daddy, but it's important my son know that. Obviously you feel the same way.
