Being content for now.

[kissak]

Thanks Mishka...have you found me on the alt yet??

That is odd about the docs not knowing whats going on with you. I know a lady that simply had her gall bladder taken out and then she lost weight. Who knows.

Dont remind me about the no insurance part....yuck!

I guess now my H will probably proceed with the divorce. We will be able to get that in April of this year. HE just got a big check from work and im sure he will take that and pay for it asap.

He has texted me today. Wanting to say hello, and even said that I must be really mad at him.....then later it was, I guess your not talking so much today. Ive just given him very short nondescriptive answers if any at all. He is not going to have everything the way he wants it and he has to deal with that.

I am at peace. Really I am. I dont like that he isnt coming back, but honestly, I dont think I could have ever trusted him. And maybe down the road things may be different. Maybe this isnt the piece of the puzzle thats missing. Maybe Im trying to cram a piece of the puzzle into a place that it wont fit....hopefully God has that piece and in time it will show up. Make any sense?

I just wish I didnt have to be around him tomorrow all day. Im sure he will want to act like everything is ok, just like today. He called this morning and wanted to talk to me and the kids. Im just going to slowly try to back away for a while.