hey K, sorry you are upset! Sounds like you have had another hard day with this.
Yes, why dont you go over there? But instead of 'letting him have it' (why all this anger??) why not just tell him what you tell us - that you are scared, panicking and it's not so much about the practical issues, but the idea of a solid family, the fantasy I suppose.... tell him you dont want a D???
Seems like getting mad and impatient and saying "you cannot go on like this" may have led him to conclude you did?? So if you hate it so much, why did you tell him that?
I'm a bit confused as to what you are upset and mad about... you went to see him yesterday and said..
"I told him I cant wait. He then asked if that meant we should move on to D immediately and I told him I see no reason stalling. He said ok and asked again if he should call the lawyer tomorrow. I said yes."
...so, did you not mean that then? Is that NOT what you want? Do you think HE is a mindreader!? (as you said in page 1 here that you cant be a mindreader or fill in the blanks for him). Maybe its time to be really really honest with yourself.. and then your H???
Or.. this is what you want, but you are just grieving it, which is I am sure only natural?
I'm only trying to help here (as always) but your actions and then reactions dont seem to bematching up !?
