T2, When I read your posts, I keep asking myself, "will this be me?" When I get the chance to get my H back will I feel like you?
Quote: I was surprised when around 9:30, he asked if it was okay if he went to bed because he didn't feel well. I said, "Sure," thinking he was making his exit (my "fear/doubt" sharing no doubt adding to his feeling sick). He then says, "Are you coming?" Then I realize he meant "our bed"...so I said, "Ok" but I knew that he'd just be going to sleep which as far as I was concerned last night was just as well because I wasn't feeling "loving" anyway. So off we went, him to sleep, me to lie there watching TV.
See, I think if I was you I'd be so happy my H would want to even sleep with me! Now that you have that, you are still not happy? Hope I won't be feeling this way. But, why do I have a feeling I will? I think you should start seeing the positive of all this. you seem to be concentrating on the negatives and "what ifs". Kick the negatives in the a$$ and leave the "what ifs" behind. Yes I know, you think this is all about them. No it's not, it's about building a "new" life together. I'm afraid you are scared about things going back to the old ways, not. You've changed too much. So take down those walls, it's OK. Your H DOES LY! Relax and look for the good in all this! BEcause believe me, there are alot of us envying you right now, and I'm one of them. I'd give anything to be where you are in your R with your H. I wish my H was staying all night, eating meals with me and telling me ILY. Maybe you should look at how far you've come! Look for the good! Deb
