True, a man will come along when you least expect it. I certainly was NOT expecting Mr. Sexy Voice..

Speaking of which, we have decided to not date or anything...I don't know if it if permanent or not...I think he had issues with me still being legally married. Bummer. I was developing strong feelings. Maybe that scared him...I have no idea how any of this works. Maybe God is looking out for me...All I know is this mans is committed to his religion as much as I am to mine (Catholic---hence the whole "dating while you're still married is wrong" thing) and that is a strong attraction.

My divorce is really almost final...the final terms have been with SpongeBobSquarePants since JANUARY 22nd!!!! WTF???????

ANyhoo, I talk to Mr. Sexy Voice everyday and he tells me he loves me and misses me...and I understand that.

SpongeBob came over last night to get his 'documents' off of our iMAC computer...and I had moved all my pictures to my own drive under a different user...well he somehow got it (through a backdoor password I'm guessing) and he was copying ALL the pictures of ME in them....OMG. WTF is up with that? i DO NOT UNDERSTAND THAT.

ANyhow, luckily I caught him. And he tried to give me some lame excuse as to how he got on my drive and I told him he was lying.

He then asked about our WEDDING PICTURES and why there were so few and I told him: Hey, you have all the ones of you and your family, what else do you want? I am surprised you wanted them at all! He then said: what about the ones of you and me?I told them they were in a landfill. I had thrown them away....he nearly started crying...and I said: You know H, I don't understnad why they are so important to you NOW. He said they were a 'part of him' and that is not 'what he would have done'...and I said: No, you did far worse. I pretty much changed the subject then.

I think he has gotten the picture that I want this to be over...He wants to hang on because he wants to control. He just does not realize that he relinquished that a long time ago.

This has all left a bad taste in my mouth and I had unpleasant dreams last night. You know these people are SO SELFISH and have no clue how they hurt us...and it will take a LONG time for us to really recover from that.

Anyhow, sorry for the long post...just needed to get it all out...

Love,
V

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller