Quote: that is how I handle things. Non directly and assuming and choosing to allow my feelings to be hurt.
You're right of course! I do "set myself up" or go "itching" for those bad feelings sometimes. I know that I still try desperately to make mountains our of moll hills, I guess for "fear" I'll "miss a red flag" this time or something.
When H returned from his meeting today, I was still in a funk and since I felt like I have "nothing more to loose" I addressed the issue about the Lowes event again the avalanche of past performance that my mind spiraled through as a result of it.
He said that while driving back to the house from his meeting he had gone over in his mind our talk from last night and decided that if his current living arrangement (he rents a room in a woman's house) was causing me to have these panics then he would move before the end of the month. He said, "If not home, somewhere that wouldn't cause me any doubts about his commitment to our R."
I told him that wasn't necessary, that I would take him on his "word" that my fears/insecurities were baseless and I'd try to work on accepting that what he says NOW is not filled with half truths etc..
Anyway, I feel better about openly expressing my fears and hearing him again reassure me that I am NOT alone in this effort to recommit.
Thank you for reminding me that I AM guilty of looking for trouble, when there isn't any. T2
