It's good that you are still meeting him for dinner and keeping the contact going. Just don't stay on the "old wounds" bandwagon too long. You seem to get much more positive results when you just act happy and like you are busy with your own "social life".
Maybe it's time to start planning to do more socially where you could casually invite H to join you with an "Oh yeah, would you care to join me?" kind of question like it hadn't dawned on you before to ask him to join you in YOUR new social life, but you're feeling GENEROUS today, so you FEEL like inviting him along if he's interested. But make sure that if/when you do invite him, that you've got some really FUN social event to attend so that if he takes you up on the offer, he will really be able to see for himself the kind of fun you've been having without him. Maybe one good experience like that would bring him leaps closer to coming home and making up for all that he's put you through.
You've just had so many positive progresses in the past couple of weeks! Don't backslide like I feel I'm doing (except I'm not really DOING anything - it's H that seems to be backsliding, & I'm just feeling all the pain of the backslide). Get back on that positive track and stay there. You still have "falling in love all over again" to look forward to, so continue "dating" your H and make it fun and fulfilling for YOU and H.
