Filling in the blanks...#57

[sandycay]

Hey K,

Still following along.... we are alike in very different situations. Last year before I really detached I had many moments of thought. When it came down to it the most primal emotion I had about my H and I divorcing was fear. I was afraid of everything, when I let go of that fear and let be.... was when the realization..... of self started. I feel this may be what you are grappling with. Fear is a powerful emotion and should be noticed but we can't live our lives in fear of..

You are only capable of giving so much, just as he is. How much only you can decide. It does seem to sacraficing oneself doesn't it? It makes me feel incredibly guilty to not be able to seem to sacrifice myself anymore... but yet I can't "pull the trigger" quite yet either. Why... I don't know but what I know is..... I stop worrying about when I should make up my mimd because it won't happen any sooner or later. It will happen when my mind is ready.... I won't force it.