You are right, I do not see myself ever really giving up hope, but the reality right now is that my H does not want to be married to me. I am trying to make myself come to terms with that.
At the same time he says that though he still wants to sleep with me and with me and stay married while we pay down our debt. BUT he does not want any of the responsibility of this. He wants to transfer and get an allowance while I stay here and be responsible for everything (the boys, the house, the bills, etc...) So I will be married with all of those things and he will be living a swinging single life and still be able to blame me for everything that is wrong because I am controlling and don't let him spend what he wants.
My other choice is to D now and take the paltry child support the state will require plus part of the debt.
Either way I am screwed.. no wonder I feel trapped!
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
with me and stay married while we pay down our debt. BUT he does not want any of the responsibility of this. He wants to transfer and get an allowance while I stay here and be responsible for everything (the boys, the house, the bills, etc...) So I will be married with all of those things and he will be living a swinging single life and still be able to blame me for everything that is wrong because I am controlling and don't let him spend what he wants.