MT i love you and you have come such a long way my friend.
Regrets-lunch sounded like it went well. Do your best not to read into anything he says. At counseling, listen but try not to internalize. I'm glad you got the sleeping pills. Eventually, you will feel more normal in your own home. I know it doesn't feel like it and I know it feels like the end of the world right now. but like MT said, you are not alone. Not at all. One day at a time, sometimes one second at a time. You will smile again. Especially after you have had some rest.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
