Todays Journal of Positives

H's Positives:
1- He called to wake me up in time for work this morning.
2- He Called this afternoon to say Hi and remind me we were suppose to meet at the WaWa when I got out of school tonight so that we could experience seeing Mars together.
3- Met him at the WaWa...couldn't see Mars because of heavy cloud coverage but...he gave me another new shirt (this one's a white Harley Davidson shirt for when I ride with him on his Harley. It wasn't even a tacky one like the stereotypical biker chicks wear, so that was kewl.
4- He bought me a new key chain
5- He checked and put air in my front tires.
6- He was happy to see me.
7= He told me what he'd done tonight while killing time waiting to meet with me at the WaWa
8- He kissed me goodbye when we left to go our separate ways and he told me he loved me.

H's Negatives: ZERO

My Positives:
1- I was cheery each time I talked to him and I thanked him for calling to make sure I got to work on time.
2- I called him "Hon"
3= I asked for his help (check tires he likes knowing I look to him for stuff like that)
4- I thanked him for doing the above
5- I thanked him for the shirt (although I wouldn't have owned one otherwise in a zillion years) and said it was a very nice choice for me.
6- I told him ILH2

My NEGATIVES:

When we pulled out of the WaWa lot I noticed he wasn't right behind me so I called him on the cell as I went up the road to ask where he'd gone off to. He said he'd gotten hung up behind a pick up truck (that I hadn't noticed) but was in route to his place.
I got that 'ugh oh' feeling for a few seconds (suspicion)and then I reminded myself: If he's lying...he's ONLY lying to himself, I am being honorable.
And then I let the feeling of distrust/insecurity go, to let God deal with him if he was lying.

I have to remind myself that there is NO reason for him to have to lie anymore. He stands to gain nothing. He does seem genuinely happy with US again, and he never acts defensive anymore when I second guess his actions/words like he been doing in past months when his heart really wasn't in the attempt to reconcile.
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