Maybe a recheck, a tune up, in regards to the counseling and meds might be helpful. You want to be in a good place to make good decisions at this time.
My counselor said the above statement to me and it's become a mantra. I don't like being on meds, struggled with needing the help of a professional. Guess what, when it works.. it keeps me on an even keel. And I control how much I get out of it based on how invested I am.
She watches for when I start 'spinning'.. not being able to get out of a certain thought. That's the sign of depression and/or anxiety increasing. I can face it head on and work on it. If that doesn't work, then the meds might need to be adjusted. And anxiety is so pervasive. I hate how anxiety takes a kernel of truth and transforms it to the worst possible outcome. That's a harder one to stop, but you can do it.
From the outside looking in.. you're spinning. The fears are greater than anything else. You can do this on your own. The results just come faster with the help of professionals.
