Slowly but surely - detach and 180

[hopefulinEG]

Tonight was more of the same. Her being pretty snapish and B$tchy. I ignored it and was cheerful. We went to D6 1st grade performance tonight. She actually sat next to me during it. She didn't sit down until right when it started but did sit with me and D8.

I see her anger getting worse and worse and I am going to see that as a good sign instead of bad. More intense feelings might mean more feelings both ways and the anger is to wipe away the good feelings that she doesn't want right now.

My PMA is also doing better the last few days. I am making a big effort to face my fear of losing her and stop thinking about that. I read on one of the Wisdom of Veterans threads that "You may notice that you have a drop in PMA just before you gain a new level of detachment." I think is exactly what just happened with me. My PMA dropped really low but now I have a new level of detachment and my PMA is back up.