"Lastly, when you have something you need to discuss with me I would like to do it by phone or email. Emotionally, I cannot handle a face to face with you. It is just too hard right now, and I need time to heal. We both do. I think we are both so emotionally messed up that we really need to step back and just be. Or maybe your fine and it's just me. I don't know.
I hope you can understand and respect my request."
While this seems.. good.. You are kinda showing your hand. Remember the things we write and say.. come across very differently to the OP. Be careful writing email and doing things on the phone. Face to face with you showing a strong "front" will work wonders. Cry when you leave. That is OK. The general idea with all this stuff.. is to stand out. Or maybe stand up. I am not quite sure on that yet. Maximize the times that he "sees" you "standing out". I know you feel like you are fighting a losing battle.. and you may be. But I will tell you someone that "stands out" will somehow become more attractive.
"Had consult with A. It went pretty good, but it seems like even if I feel I am due more than what he is offering, I'm going to have to have an A represent me."
I am unsure if that is a complete thought. Or I just don't understand. Can you expand on that?
Right now.. I would say.. let the A do the talking. I am not gonna tell you to stop all talking with H.. just gonna tell you be careful.
"How can I continue to love this man who has torn me up inside? Why do I shed tears for a relationship that no longer exists?"
We all do it. Sometimes I think that it can become a driving force. I am not sure how to label it though. Somewhere in this mix of "Emotion".. lies the true you. You get the job of figuring it out.
"How is it so easy for one person to walk away from what was supposed to be forever?"
Trust me when I say.. this was not a easy choice for him. I have worn your shoes. And been where you are. Somehow.. you will learn from this. That is really all that is important.
You asked me some questions.. and I gotta go back and "catch up".
I will be back.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
