Journal

Oh half an hour later and the panic is back. Need to focus. I'm not going do die without him

I have lots of friends who love me

I am going to work on my insecurities

I will be relaxed and happy around H

I won't overdo the chasing

Will not discuss R until proceed with counselling

Will not get paranoid that counsellor tells him he needs to leave and it is a bad marriage (Arghhhhhhhhhhh)

I will shine like a star and he'll wonder why he ever this ever happend

H 36 2nd marriage
me 32 1st marriage
no kids