Forgive AND forget?

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Thanks for all your thoughts.
H has not left voluntarily, and I have not kicked him to the curb. The business equipment is still in use in the house, the horses are not loaded in the trailer. They wouldn't all fit!

What has happened is more issues with H's debt which is affecting my credit. We've had more conversations and emails, it's been intense. H also needs money for his portion of new equipment with his 'new partner'.
H has talked about some things that went wrong in life and his plan for the cc debt he had to pay it off, his 5 year plan to be debt free. It fell apart, and while I knew he had debt and was struggling I turned away and left it alone. It wasn't my problem. My life was actually going pretty good.
Then it happened to the whole country too, families wallowing in debt and unable to meet obligations.

While H still considers me a contributing factor to his debt (WTF? I fed the horses too much?) he does now say more of the truth about what happened and takes responsibility and is working on a new plan. He won't give me details (yet). He doesn't trust me.

So that's about it. I still believe with whole hearted enthusiasm that this M does NOT have to end in D. H knows what I need, we've both done our share of crying this week. I cleared one of my own hurdles and told H that I loved him, and I signed an email Love. If H does pack up and leave he will go knowing that I love him.

One more thing, I went to church this week. I cry, cry, cry. I don't understand why church makes me cry.

Work has been crazy busy and I am thankful.