Wandering Poster 50- The Half Century

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((Jeff)) well after all this time you & I are at the exact same spot. I just told our kids the other day. I had intended for H & I to tell them together, then he suggested we tell D14 at 10 pm at night when she'd been out all evening babysitting, still had homework to finish, needed a shower, & gets up at 5 am. I suggested that wasn't the best time.

I ended up telling the kids one at a time the next day. FYI I wasn't trying to be underhanded at all. I thought their reactions would be more open & real if they didn't have to worry about what both Mom & Dad, & siblings are thinking at the same time. Also, my boys don't cry in front of H or each other, & I wanted them to be able to do that if they felt it.

I told them what my Doc & I had discussed. Later that same night, H talked to them individually as well.

At times, they express a lot of tears & hurt, & other times, they seem to be coping really well.

I did tell them that the reason I'm not crying much is because I cried all my tears out months ago. They are seeing me at moments, happier than I've been in a long time, & I'm sure that's very confusing to them too.

hugs