I know exactly how you feel as far as tippin a few back. I got into a pattern of every other weekend. I had to take a break from that. It is fun but easy to get caught up in.
They all rewrite history to justify their craziness. Pay no attention to it. It is crappy that she is putting your children in the middle of it. Big the better person my man.
Heard from MIL last night, she has not talked to W since Monday last. Who knows, maybe W has moved on compltetey and wants everything she had gone, inlcuding her mother and her kids....
Oh well, attitude outta really survive for a while then. Out today with the flu, just got out of bed. Been achey and crappy all week last week, and felt so-so all wekend. It hit me hard this morning.
Anyway day 12 is over. Attitude is strong, other than MIL and D21 comments about her and what they think, no thoughts (really) and no wondering about her.
Yeah I know how that goes as far as rewriting everything, but to tell D17 that I treated her badly to the point where D17 said something to her brother really upset me. I will, on the Faith of God, never say a word to her or my D17 about it, ever. Been apart emotionally from her since August 4 and physically since August 29th. I don't know.....Its all astarting to stack against me, keeping the Fiath, looking to God and taking it one day at a time...
Day 15, hump day. I am halfway through my initial goal of 30 days with my attitude. Going good so far, feels heavy on a couple of days, but for the most part I am solid. Kids definitely see a difference. Obviously spending less time thinking or considering it. All I can do is what I am doing , moving on and enjoying my time....
Day 19 and still going strong. Had a great weekend, one of the best I can remember. I have never laughed so hard, and as for being the social butterfly, well its been a while since I was that outgoing. I am not thinking about her and my sleeping is getting so much better. Found myself sitting in my chair Friday night, texting my buddy whose band was playing all wekend and thinking, I have nothing going on, get up and go out...So I did...It was a great spur of the moment situation. W told my D21 that she is going to talk to me about the taxes cuz of the deductible she has to pay fo rher operation on her wrist. D21 told her, Dad got his money and paid off the utitlies as much as he could, that was it. she asked W if she had done her taxes yet, and she said no, she thought we could still do them together, D21 said, nope his are done, you need to do yours and see what you get back. She told D21 she would talk to me and figure out what to do. I have been hearing this for almost 3 weeks. She doesn't talk to me, she tells everyone she is going to, but them again, she is getting a full time job, getting her own apartment, moving south after D17 turns 18, selling her car, getting her car fixed...The list goes on and on. This also is very much not like who she was. She did not procrastinate....But she is no longer that person, she should try and find her, maybe the person she used to be could help her...No, wait, that won't work becuase who she was didn't like people who cheated and people who didn't care for their families, [people who just up and left....So that idea is right out the window, LOL....
No, wait, that won't work becuase who she was didn't like people who cheated and people who didn't care for their families, [people who just up and left....So that idea is right out the window, LOL....
Ain't it funny how things work out?
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
She told d21 that she has to talk to me about the camper, cuz its in both our names, no it isn't. she wants to split weekends, soon as she gives me half the fees for the campground and the utilities I'll think about it, not.....
Because the camper is solely in my name, I had to register for the campsite, It is me and GUEST......I have also changed all the locks. I have someone interested in it so I hope it sells. She thinks she'll have a summer place without having to pay a nickel. She is definitely out there....Wonder what the weather is like on her planet? Most I have discussed her in 19 days....
Well W screwed it all up. Day 21 she contacted me about signing the insurance check becasue both names are on it. She had to come to my office, I went outside and signed it. No biggie. Figured I'd start fresh to 30 days as of this morning, nope, she screwed it up, called me at 7:30 this morning to meet her at the bank so she can cash it. She says the repair shop needs the money by today to order parts so they can fix her car next week. Sounds like a real up to snuff body shop. told her i would, she told me about her surgery and whatever. told her I was at an interview this morning that went extremely well and I will be interviewed again end of this month.
Met a buddy last night for dinner, thanks FH. I actually drove home thinking I feel as good as when I drive home from church. It was so good to talk to someone who has been there and back. I know her "talking" to me yesterday and today are only because of the insurance check. question is, why didn't she put it in the bank last week when she got it. It would've cleared by now. Who knows, who cares. I will talk to my bank about cashing it for her so I don't have to meet her. If they put a hold on it, then we go to the bank it was drawn on. Who cares...
So I will restart my thrity days tomorrow, no contact at all. Man this is really disturbing. I was nine days shy of the goal, damn it!!!!
Day 1 again. Thinking of her. It was harder to push the thoughts out last night. But I realize all the past two days was about money. Like the previous times she contacted me was about money. I have looked back on everytime she has contacted me and it revolved around money. So it is going to be easy to get back on track, now that I realize no connection or contact she had with me had to do with me, it had to do with money, for her.......Day 1, heading for the 30 day goal again, pray for me....
