I went out last night and had a good good night, all the girls are supporting me.
I really went slightly crazy this morning. I was rocking like a mad woman and unconsolable,I'm waiting on doctor to call me back. I know it#s chasing but I can't stand it any longer. I haven't badgered him but he is just withdrawing more and more.
I called him and said I know you have football and you're out fri sat but really could do with you coming along to counsellor. I said it's not for you, it's for me, I need a little help dealing with this whatever the outcome. Straight away he calmed me down and said yes whenever you can get appt I'll come.
I know I may not like the answers if any, but I can't go on like this. I'm making myself ill and it's no good for either of us.
He is a nice, decent man so I realise that he is probably only doing this to help me move on in 2 short weeks.
It may sound selfish and putting him under pressure but I need, for my own sanity, some sort of clue as to what has happened.
