Just journaling. He called Monday night and asked if he could come up. Of course I said yes but not like a stupid school girl. Just yeah, sure, I guess. He didn't have anything he wanted to discuss really. Really, it just seemed like he wanted to hold and be held. Which I did. I've got no problem with that cause I miss it too. And some days are just worse than others. On his way out we went downstairs with him and just sat and hung out. It's hard to find things to talk about when you aren't living in the same house. Add to that that we haven't lived in the same house for over a year. Finally after about 15 minutes outside he left.
Okay. So then yesterday he emails me early and asks if I want to go to lunch. I say sure. No biggie. Of course no R talk and I will not bring it up, either. Nice time, but quiet, and I am letting the silence happen instead of trying to fill it with chatter.
Then today he texts to see if I want to go to lunch again. Why not? So I bought today since he bought yesterday. Then on the way back he pulled into a little western store, said he'd be right back, and came back 5 mins later. Handed me the bag and says this is for you. It was a thing of lotion. He knows how dry my skin is. And I said thank you. And then he took me back to work. Weird.
I guess OW is getting forced out sooner than I thought. We'll see. I think it is going to bite him in the butt because I think she will play the pity card: "He tried to sleep with me and I turned him down and now he is doing THIS to me..." We'll see. Hopefully she leaves and he makes it out of that experience in tact.
I am not making ANYTHING out of these recent actions. He told me last week he wanted a divorce. I said okay, get the paperwork together, and that is what I am expecting to happen. If it doesn't then so be it. I am not getting caught in this cycle again. I am not going to get sucked into thinking there is progress, when he has quite consistently told me he wants a divorce. He knows how I feel and I trust that if he has changed his mind he will TELL me so. Until then, press on.
I don't want to do my homework. I am so burned out. Just want to do nothing.
Thanks for listening to me!
Melissa
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
I think it is going to bite him in the butt because I think she will play the pity card: "He tried to sleep with me and I turned him down and now he is doing THIS to me..." We'll see. Hopefully she leaves and he makes it out of that experience in tact. 
